I started the day with a traditional effort to be cheerful, but by the afternoon, i was back home and realized that nothing significant had happened. logically, something should have. i was sprawled on the couch, checking the world on my laptop to keep up, when a friend texted asking where i was.i f... Read All

Today, as i was heading home, i had a severe neck pain from standing all day. to ease the pain, i involuntarily tilted my head towards the sky and realized how much i missed the stars. how much i longed to watch the sky.the last vivid image of a starry sky away from the city i have in my mind is fro... Read All

Today, after a long time, i spent the entire day with my family. we visited old parts of the city that we hadn't been to for a while: maqbarat al-sho'ara, shahnaz, the tabriz bazaar, and baghe golestan. the last one was more nostalgic for my father than for me.i also tried to mend a fractured relati... Read All

Once you start recognizing the signs of adhd, you begin analyzing everything, and your mind gets used to all the "what-ifs" and "so-whats." the result is that even moments of solitude and efforts to not think about anything end up being filled with intense overthinking, analyzing the most trivial th... Read All

The hardest moment of quitting smoking isn’t 23 hours after the last cigarette, but the next day. when you find yourself in the exact same time and place where you had the last smoke. it feels like dragging your hand across a smooth surface only to disrupt the harmony of that surface with a small de... Read All

Over twenty years of my not-so-remarkable life have passed, and i’m still left with the regret of not being able to trust someone without ending up disappointed. it’s a painful tragedy.i have a simple solution: let’s teach the little prince from the first grade. maybe the next generation will turn o... Read All

If you’ve seen strange tweets from accounts with unusual usernames recently, be aware that twitter generates these usernames randomly and they include character strings related to the email address. in other words, these individuals’ emails also have random, automated character strings. more specifi... Read All

Light rain is falling. after a night full of stress and a tough morning, i’m lying on my bed. ali kınık is singing, “even the children know that ali loves aisha.” it’s been a long time since i’ve had this kind of mental void.in the midst of this, i’ve realized i need to delete half of my contacts. f... Read All

We bought our first car when i was 7 years old, a peykan 57. although we had a car for a short time before that, i don’t know why we bought it or why we sold it. i just remember one hot, probably summer day when my father came home with it. i played with the air vent, one of those circular ones divi... Read All

The reality is that the earth will never experience the kind of peace we dream about. conflicts, distractions, wars, and so on will always be present. waiting for all problems to be resolved before starting to live is not sensible. let's start right now. let's live as well as we can. let's laugh mor... Read All

The heaviest days are those when change is imminent and you're the last one to change. it's like the feeling of the last member of a group facing execution, with even the fellow members absent to mourn. or like the feeling of parents whose children have gone to the other side of the world, leaving t... Read All

If you have recently experienced problems connecting to gem repositories (ruby package management), it's likely due to https restrictions. to resolve this, you can switch the default repositories to http. use the following commands in your terminal:gem source -r https://rubygems.orggem source -a htt... Read All