For over a year, i’ve been just thinking, about everything. so much that people here have grown frustrated with my silence and withdrawal. i have hundreds of pages of notes from all this thinking, though they’re so chaotic and tangled that i doubt anyone else could make sense of them. sometimes i th... Read All

Only a few moments left until the new year. since early 2016, i haven’t had a real life and spent almost the entire year in the barracks. but in the new year, i’ll be discharged in mid-autumn, and after overcoming the last big challenge, i’ll move full speed toward my goals. i hope that in the new y... Read All

I wrote, “at that time, i came to the conclusion that most people around me didn’t like me. this thought consumed me completely. but there was another thought in contrast: most people, or at least those around me, didn’t like each other either. so this wasn’t really a flaw on my part. yet there were... Read All

I wrote, “today you came to my dream again. it felt like the day i first saw you. yet, i felt all the events of these past years. every moment you weren’t there. you should have been, but you weren’t. you should have kissed me, but you didn’t. you should have wrapped your hands around my neck, but y... Read All

The british library has recently digitized and released its unique and rare image archive on flickr here. as usual, the first thing i did was search for “tabriz” in the archive. the “nobar” gate of tabriz ... Read All

Aside from the fact that military service is one of the most unfortunate experiences someone can go through, this misfortune comes with a lot of mountains, plains, and dust. most of the time, you’re stationed in the mountains and open fields, unless you have some unlimited, super-connected hookup, w... Read All

While life is being defined through two markers, a parade in the middle of the room, and boards on the walls, if we consider it as 70 years, we live a total of 25,567 days, including leap years. one could interpret this as every person facing 25,567 challenges in their lifetime. the question is, whe... Read All

To solve a problem, you first need to understand it, right? but at what cost? when one of the most valuable assets of any person is time, how much and how long should be spent on solving a problem for it to truly be considered solved without feeling like you’ve wasted time? what’s the alternative? i... Read All

fifteen minutes later, ryukhin was sitting in complete solitude; leaning over a dish of fish snacks, drinking vodka glass after glass, understanding himself better with each moment, and realizing that in his entire life, not a single thing remained that could be corrected. the master and margarita ... Read All

When you introduce yourself to someone you want, and they don’t want you, trying to see their flaws and faults doesn’t make things better. because it can be seen as: someone with all their flaws still didn’t want you. the feeling that someone was so good yet didn’t want you is far more bearable. my... Read All

In the late elementary school years, i used to get money weekly from my father. however, this money was barely enough to cover a week’s round-trip taxi fare, and since friday was a holiday, i could use that day’s share to buy something or save it. a midweek day off or a snowfall meant more freedom, ... Read All

The little fish campaign briefly states:“placing a fish on the haft-seen table is neither part of our traditional customs nor an ethical act. these lovely creatures are very sensitive to movement and impact, and such events can cause them to have a stroke. keeping them in a confined space is like co... Read All