Yesterday, because i didn’t know where the extra blankets were (plus their small size), i froze all night. the morning passed with breakfast and enjoyable silence, leading up to work discussions that didn’t reach the desired outcome. i also had the privilege of witnessing ali prepare dough for br... Read All

Zarkhesht is an incredibly beautiful place. it’s neither dry, soulless, and purposeless like modern villas nor dilapidated and uncomfortable like old rural homes. every brick seems to hold an idea for its uniqueness (the “zar”). from its mostly wooden architecture to the circular environment with it... Read All

May 14, 2020, zarkhesht (1) | meeting ali sekhavati a few weeks earlier, i had told ali sekhavati that i was very interested in seeing zarkhesht. following his own trip there, he accepted my request and invited me. it seemed like a simple trip, but little did i know that my mouth would be thoroug... Read All

I’ve had my issues with ubuntu for a long time, but after trying many other distributions, it unfortunately remains my first choice if you don’t want to deal with the thousand-and-one problems of other distros. from non-working shortcut keys when your keyboard language isn’t english on deepin, to mi... Read All

Preface: this post is a quick tutorial about a specific tool or concept. what you read below is the essential knowledge you need to quickly learn to use this tool or concept. i publish these series under the name wtf course. quick guide to linux terminal commands: debian/ubuntu only: sudo a... Read All

In the past weeks, my decision to leave the company became more serious and actionable, but what i hadn't anticipated was the stagnation and economic situation caused by covid-19. it wiped out all alternatives, leaving me stuck in istanbul with the stay-at-home restrictions. the days passed one a... Read All

Talking about nowruz and celebrations while thousands in iran and around the world are mourning loved ones lost to covid-19, and the local mosque announces a few names every day*, with people clinging to prayers and lamentations, while police sirens and red-alert announcements sound every few hours,... Read All

- i can’t bear the loneliness and alienation; i go to my own city and become my own king. + even in your own city, you weren’t exactly special.... Read All

No matter how much you try to escape the vague dimensions of your relationship, those dimensions will eventually catch up with you somewhere, demanding answers. "it's not binary. you can be decent and gifted at the same time." - steve wozniak ... Read All

Daily notesalmost two years after arriving in turkey, my main issue remains the lack of a work visa, which in turn prevents me from planning for the future and living peacefully with myself. things like having calmness at home, enough space for activities beyond sleeping, and a place free from inter... Read All

Because istanbul is surrounded by the sea, it has a relatively mild climate. except for rare times when strong winds make the rain cold and annoying, most of the time istanbul’s weather is warm and bearable. today, however, unlike before, i noticed darkness in the morning due to black clouds over th... Read All

career advice for turkish women in 1937 ... Read All